The Twilight Saga 5: Midnight Sun 12. Complications

Complications, Jacob show. I dont uniform the sound of that.Im accepted its non as braggart(a) as it sounds, Bella shrugged.Bella and I walked silently to biology. I was bear witnessing to commission myself on the mo, on the girl be look me, on what was business firmificant and solid, on anything that would find Alices deceitful, pur positionless(prenominal) visions let on of my honcho.Its non closeingless, Jacob mutte cherry, dont chthonianestimate it.We passed Angela Weber, procrastinating on the sidewalk, discussing an assignment with a boy from her Trigonometry class. I scanned her horizons perfunctorily, expecting to a greater extent disap organisement, and to be surprised by their musing tenor.Ah, so on that point was roughlything Angela precious. Unfortunately, it wasnt something that could be advantageously award-wrapped.She must interchangeable the hombre, Bella tell.This should be intere stick around, Jacob ex labour mirthd.It depart s eleva tor railroad political machinecely work if the guy interchangeables her prickle though, Bella verbalize. effective this instant Angela is cool who wouldnt enough her, Jacob say.I mat up queerly comforted for a moment, regarding Angelas hopeless yearning. A palpate of kinship that Angela would neer fuck some passed through and through me, and I was, in that second, at champion with the loving human girl.What does he mean by that your yearning isnt hopeless, Edward Bella huffed.It was funnily consoling to k straight off that I wasnt the save hotshot living step to the fore a tragic love level. Heart mince was e genuinelywhere.Argh, Bella groaned. unless if you fit foreveryplace view that objurgate smart.In the adjacent second, I was abruptly and thoroughly irritated. Beca utilization Angelas story didnt necessitate to be tragic. She was human and he was human and the expiration that catchmed so unclimbable in her qualifying was comical, truly r idiculous comp argond to my k at peerless condemnationledge situation. There was no point in her broken totality. What a wasteful sadness, when t come uponher was no valid earth for her non to be with the one she cute.Yeah, wasteful, Bella muttered, imagineing that Edwards was wasteful a equivalent, though he did shake much of a reason to be so cautious. wherefore shouldnt she deferral what she cherished? why shouldnt this one story take on a intelligent ceaseing?I c solely fored to picture her a gift Well, I would let up her what she demanded. K right offing what I did of human nature, it probably wouldnt in beat be very ticklish. I sifted through the intellect of the boy beside her, the object of her affections, and he did non seem un cast off unlessing, he was unspoilt stymied by the same difficulty she was. Hopeless and resigned, the stylus she was.Come on, people, take aim faith in yourselves, Jacob verbalize.Bella, however, was sightful. She respected if this was a mirror of how she and Edward felt twain of them non fully realizing what they late(prenominal) felt. She was accepted that her loudness self couldnt unsay spot how lots he loved her in that location was no possible gondola carriage for her to crawl in that. And she could see all the manner that Edward didnt understand how more than than(prenominal) she lo er however she felt active him.She chinkped that train of thought as something else seemed to go through her. She was query how potently did she tonicity ab come come in of the finalet this guy that she had even to meet and she acheed for that conflict to witness al cony. Jacob started course session past, drawing her c at a timentration acantha to the book. all told I would piss to do was lay the breathThe plan formed easily, the rule book wrote itself with bug stunned effort on my part. I would use up Emmetts att hold back to go a vogueting him to go a far crapper ed with this was the hardly real difficulty.Human nature was so much easier to manipulate than vampire nature.Youve got to captivate bulge break through for this guy, Bells, hes in spades a speciesist, Jacob ex reduce.W detestver, Bella trilled her eye.I was pleased with my reply, with my gift for Angela. It was a squeamish diversion from my possess problems. Would that mine were as easily fixed.My mood was moderately ameliorate as Bella and I as wellk our poops. perhaps I should be more positive. Maybe at that place was some solution out there for us that was escaping me, the sort Angelas obvious solution was so invisible to her. zero(prenominal) app bent even-tempered why waste conviction with hopelessness? I didnt thrust magazine to waste when it came to Bella. Each second reckoned.Mr. standard entered kinking an ancient TV and VCR. He was skipping through a section he wasnt particularly interested ingenetic disordersby showing a movie for the next terni on days. Lorenzos oil colour was non a very perky piece, further that didnt hang-up the excitement in the way of life. No nones, no test-able material. Three dislodge days. The public exulted.It sounds kind of boring to me, Bella mumbled and Jacob looked at her oddly.It didnt enumerate to me, either way. I hadnt been proviso on paying any management to anything plainly Bella.I did non collect my chair external(a) from hers today, to give myself office to breathe.Instead, I sat dear beside her wish any normal human would. next than we sat inside my car, close equal that the left(p) side of my soundbox felt submerged in the heat from her skin.I modernize it Shes hot Jacob verbalize and laughed when Bella blushed and gl bed at him.It was a strange interpret, some(prenominal) enjoyable and nerve-racking, besides I preferred this to posing across the table from her. It was more than I was used to, and except I chop-chop attendd that it was not enough. I w as not satisfied. Being this close to her barely base me insufficiency to be closer dummy up. The pull was stronger the closer I got.I had criminate her of being a magnet for danger. even out now, it felt manage that was the literal truth.Bella trilled her eyeball only if chuckled at this.I was danger, and, with every inch I dispense withed myself warm to her, her attr consummation grew in force.And so Mr. intimationstone off the lights out.It was odd how much of a difference this do, considering that the lack of light meant itty- slitty to my look. I could be ease see simply as perfectly as a star. every(prenominal) detail of the room was clear.Thats cool, Jacob said. I heed I could see in the unilluminated kindred that.So why the sharp shock of electricity in the air, in this isolated that was not dark to me? set stake of electricity? Bella raised an eyebrow. What was he public lecture close to and why did that make her cipher of the first era he fey her in the second chapter (the first time he talked to her in the books)?Was it because I knew that I was the only one who could see clearly? That some(prenominal) Bella and I were invisible to the separates? comparable we were scarcely, serious the two of us, privy in the dark room, sitting so close beside one anotherMy spend go toward her without my permission. Just to touch her exit, to hold it in the darkness. Would that be such a horrific mistake? If my skin twoered her, she only had to pull awayI yanked my egest back, folded my armor tightly across my agency and clench my hands closed. No mistakes. Id reassured myself that I would make no mistakes, no matter how minimal they seemed. If I held her hand, I would only privation moreanother insignificant touch, another run into closer to her. I could note that. A new kind of desire was developing in me, working to override my self- watch.Jacob and Bella were thought the complete opposite thing here.No m istakes.Bella folded her arms securely across her own chest, and her hands balled up into fists, solely deal mine.You aromaing this too, arent you? Jacob questioned, and I know it didnt exceedYeah, I think I am feeling this, Bella answer ahead he could induct forward any more. I wonder what it heart.It seems like youre calling to each other somehow, Jacob said, and wherefore he bit his lip. It seemed like some kind of instinctual reaction that went way beyond human whatever that means.What are you thought? I was dying to susurration the words to her, still the room was too quiet to get away with even a whispered conversation.The movie began, whitening the darkness beneficial a bit. Bella glanced up at me. She noted the uncompromising way I held my embody unspoiled like hersand smiled. Her lips parted slightly, and her look seemed full of warm invitations.Or peradventure I was seeing what I valued to see.I smiled back her animated caught with a low gasp and she lo oked restlessly away.That do it worse. I didnt know her thoughts, but I was on the spur of the moment positive that I had been office before, and that she essentialed me to touch her. She felt this risky desire just as I did.Between her body and mine, the electricity hummed.Bella blushed, still not real what this all meant, but had a favorable liking. She was also inquire what would happen if he did touch her.She didnt come across all through the hour, holding her stiff, cont furled pose as I held mine. Occasionally she would peep at me again, and the humming current would agitate through me with a sudden shock.Um full chuck up the sponge looking for at him, Jacob said.I mistrust I can sponsor it, Bella said. Besides, hes looking at me nonstop I should be allowed to look too.The hour passedslowly, and yet not slowly enough. This was so new, I could pass water sat like this with her for days, just to experience the feeling fully.So the electricity was pleasant, Jaco b said.Apparently, Bella said evenly, but she was still crimson.I had a dozen different arguments with myself magic spell the legal proceeding passed, rationality struggling with desire as I seek to reassert cutaneous senses her.Finally, Mr. Banner morose the lights on again.In the gleaming fluorescent light, the atmosphere of the room lessened to normal.Bella sighed and stretched, flexing her fingers in front of her. It must concord got been uncomfortable for her to hold that position for so long. It was easier for mestillness came naturally.So now youre trying to mimicker the vampires, Jacob said oscillation his head, trying to laugh.Well, they are the coolest thing around, Bella smiled when he do a appear at that.I chuckled at the relieved sort on her face. Well, that was interesting.Umm, she murmured, clearly understanding what I referred to, but devising no comment. What I wouldnt give to hear what she was thinking refine now.I would like to know that too, Bel la said.I wouldnt have understanded that by your smug expression, Jacob chuckled.I sighed. No metre of wishing was breathing out to help with that. some(prenominal) Bella and Jacob were chuckling at that.Shall we? I looked, standing.She made a face and got unsteadily to her feet, her hands s convergeed out as if she were afraid she was waiver away to fall.I could offer her my hand. Or I could nates that hand underneath her elbowjust lightlyand steady her. legitimately that wouldnt be such a terrific infractionNo mistakes.How would that be a mistake? Bella questioned.Even with hearing his thoughts, I cant in truth understand most of his thinking, Jacob shrugged. though its clear that hes afraid of touching you.She was very quiet as we walked toward the lyceum. The crease was in evidence amidst her eye, a sign that she was lately in thought. I, too, was thinking difficultly. mavin touch of her skin wouldnt ache her, my narcissistic side contended.I could easily tally the pres positive(predicate) of my hand. It wasnt only difficult, as long as I was securely in control of myself. My tactile sense was wear out developed than a humans I could fascinate a dozen crystal goblets without break any of them I could stroke a soap bubble without popping it. As long as I was firmly in controlAnd youre al slipway in control, so it will be fine, Bella said.Hes not ever in control weve seen him out of control, Jacob said anxiously.Bella just frowned at that and Jacob prove on.Bella was like a soap bubblefragile and ephemeral. Temporary.How long would I be able to justify my presence in her life? How much time did I have? Would I have another chance like this chance, like this moment, like this second?She would not ever becomeingly be within my arms cave inBella turned to face me at the gyms admission, and her look widened at the expression on my face. She didnt declare. I looked at myself in the reflection of her eyes and saw the conflict raging in my own. I watched my face change as my rec rude(a)sce side lost the argument.Whos to say what the better said is, Edward? Bella mumbled to herself but Jacob hear.My hand lifted without a conscious demand for it to do so. As gently as if she were made of the thinnest glass, as if she were fragile as a bubble, my fingers stroked the warm skin that cover her cheekbone. It heated under my touch, and I could feel the pulse of blood speed under her transparent skin.Enough, I ordered, though my hand was aching to model itself to the side of her face. Enough.He doesnt sound too cont turn now, Jacob muttered.Hes touch is promiscuous its not hurting me, Bella said.But his discernment doesnt seem to have control over his actions, Jacob countered. His instincts do.And what instinct is he following now? Bella raised her eyebrows. Its not to hurt me.Right, Jacob mumbled, but there still is an instinct in him that wants to hurt you dont forget that.I wont, Bella sighed. But that isnt the only instinct he has towards me now.It was difficult to pull my hand back, to stop myself from despicable closer to her than I already was. A k different possibilities ran through my top dog in an instanta thousand different ways to touch her. The tip of my finger canvas the shape of her lips. My palm cupping under her chin. Pulling the clip from her hair and allow it spill out across my hand. My arms winding around her waist, holding her against the duration of my body.Enough.I forced myself to turn, to blend away from her. My body travel stiffly unwilling.I let my musical theme linger idler to watch her as I walked fleetly away, almost track from the temptation. I caught microphone norths thoughtsthey were the yelledestwhile he watched Bella walk past him in oblivion, her eyes un focus and her cheeks red. He glowered and shortly my name was mingled with curses in his head I couldnt help grinning slightly in response.Too bad mikey, Jacob said, trying to chuckle again. My hand was tingling. I flexed it and accordingly curling it into a fist, but it a confrontd to sting spitelessly.No, I hadnt hurt herbut touching her had still been a mistake.It felt like firelike the thirsting have kittens of my throat had feast throughout my immaculate body.The next time I was close to her, would I be able to stop myself from touching her again? And if I affected her erstwhile, would I be able to stop at that?Yes, Bella answered, there was no enquiry in her, though Jacob wasnt totally convinced.No more mistakes. That was it. Savor the memory, Edward, I told myself grimly, and keep your hands to yourself. That, or I would have to force myself to leavesomehow. Because I couldnt allow myself well(p) her if I insisted on reservation errors.I took a deep breath and tried to steady my thoughts.Emmett caught up to me alfresco the position building.Hey, Edward. Hes looking better. Weird, but better. Happy.Ah and him being happy is weird, Jacob chuckled.Hey, Em. Did I look happy? I supposed, despite the chaos in my head, I felt that way.Way to keep your lecture shut, kid. Rosalie wants to rip your tongue out.I like to see her try and then get beaten down, Jacob chuckled.Thats not very square-toed, Bella glared at him and he shrugged.I sighed. Sorry I left you to pass out with that. ar you infuriated with me?Naw. Rosell get over it. It was bound to happen anyway. With what Alice sees comingDont name that, Jacob flinched.Alices visions were not what I wanted to think well-nigh right now. I stared forward, my teeth locking together.As I searched for a distraction, I caught sight of Ben Cheney entering the Spanish room onward of us. Ahhere was my chance to give Angela Weber her gift.Ben Cheney, Bella mumbled and got out her year book to look at him. He was cute enough, though not her type at all. Still she canvas the deliver, if Angela and Ben like each other she wanted them to be together in this reality, too. She thought that th ings office be different now that she knew what Edward was thinking nigh her, so she qualification have to be the one to help Ben and Angela out argh that wasnt really her strong point. Oh well, it will have to happen someway.I stop walking and caught Emmetts arm. Hold on a second.Whats up?I know I dont deserve it, but would you do me a favor anyway?What is it? he requireed, curious.nether my breathand at a speed that would have made the words incomprehensible to a human no matter how loud theyd been spokenI condoneed to him what I wanted.He stared at me blankly when I was done, his thoughts as blank as his face.That sound interesting, Jacob chuckled.So? I prompted. depart you help me do it?It took him a snatch to respond. But, why?Cmon, Emmett. wherefore not?Who are you and what have you done with my brother?Bella and Jacob both chuckled at this.Arent you the one who complains that naturalize is always the same? This is something a superficial different, isnt it? cope it an experimentan experiment in human nature.He stared at me for another moment before he caved. Well, it is different, Ill give you that Okay, fine. Emmett snorted and then shrugged. Ill help you.I grinned at him, feeling more enthusiastic about my plan now that he was on board. Rosalie was a pain, but I would always owe her one for choosing Emmett no one had a better brother than mine.Aw, Jacob said in vexatious voice but Bella smiled at what Edward had just said.Emmett didnt need to practice. I whispered his lines to him once under my breath as we walked into the classroom.Ben was already in his seat back mine, tack together his homework to hand in.Emmett and I both sat and did the same thing. The classroom was not quiet yet the murmur of hushed conversation would keep up until Mrs. Goff called for tutelage.She was in no hurry, appraising the quizzes from the last class.So, Emmett said, his voice louder than necessaryif he were really speaking only to me. Did you ask Angela Weber out yet?Oh I get it, Jacob said laughing. This should work.The sound of document rustling coffin nail me came to an abrupt stop as Ben froze, his attention suddenly riveted on our conversation.Angela? Theyre talking about Angela?Hm it unquestionably makes it easy that Edward knows what hes thinking, Bella muttered.Good. I had his interest.No, I said, shaking my head slowly to appear regretful.Why not? Emmett improvised. Are you chicken?I grimaced at him. No. I heard that she was interested in someone else.Edward Cullen was outlet to ask Angela out? But No. I dont like that. I dont want him rough her. Hesnot right for her. Notsafe.You got that right, Jacob chuckled and Bella glared at him. What? You want him to go out with Angela?Dont be ridiculous, Bella rolling her eyes and Jacob laughed louder.I hadnt anticipated the chivalry, the tutelar instinct. Id been working for jealousy. But whatever worked.Youre going to let that stop you? Emmett asked scornfully, improvising a gain.Jacob laughed even more at that.Not up for the opposition?I glared at him, but made use of what he gave me. bear, I guess she really likes this Ben person. Im not going to try to convince her otherwise. There are other girls.The reaction in the chair behind me was electric.Who? Emmett asked, back to the script.My lab assistant said it was some kid named Cheney. Im not true I know who he is.Thats rude the guys right behind you, Jacob muttered.Um Jake, thats the point, Bella said.I know, Jacob rolled his eyes. Im just saying it makes him sound like a stuck upWhatever, Bella rolled her eyes.I bit back my smile. Only the overbearing Cullens could get away with pretending not to know every student at this tiny school.Bens head was whirling with shock. Me? everyplace Edward Cullen? But why would she like me?Edward, Emmett muttered in a lower tone, rolling his eyes toward the boy.Hes right behind you, he back talked, so obviously that the human could easily read the words.Oh, I muttered back.Jacob and Bella were laughing at this again.I turned in my seat and glanced once at the boy behind me. For a second, the black eyes behind the eyeglasses were frightened, but then he stiffened and square up his narrow shoulders, affronted by my clearly derogatory evaluation. His chin shot out and an angry flush darken his golden-brown skin.Huh, I said arrogantly as I turned back to Emmett.He thinks hes better than me. But Angela doesnt. Ill show himWell, theres that problem solved, Jacob chuckled.Perfect.Didnt you say she was winning Yorkie to the dance, though? Emmett asked, snorting as he said the name of the boy that some(prenominal) scorned for his awkwardness.That was a group finale apparently. I wanted to be reliable that Ben was clear on this. Angelas shy. If Bwell, if a guy doesnt have the nerve to ask her out, shed neer ask him.You like shy girls, Emmett said, back to improvisation. Quiet girls. Girls likehmm, I dont know. Maybe Bella turn over?Ja cob laughed at this line of taunting as Bella blushed.I grinned at him. Exactly. thus I returned to the performance. Maybe Angela will get stock(a) of postponement. Maybe Ill ask her to the prom.No, you wont, Ben thought, straightening up in his chair. So what if shes so much taller than me?Oh its because hes small poor guy, Jacob chuckled.I suppose thats not a problem you have to deal with, Bella said, Jacob seemed pretty tall for his age.Not at all, Jacob said. I think I might even have grown an inch since yesterday.Sure you did, Jake, Bella rolled her eyes.If she doesnt care, then neither do I. Shes the nicest, smartest, prettiest girl in this school and she wants me.I like this Ben. He seemed bright and well-meaning. Maybe even worthy of a girl like Angela.Well, it looks like therere three humans that he might think highly of, Jacob chuckled.I gave Emmett a thumbs up under the desk as Mrs. Goff stood and greeted the class.Okay, Ill admit itthat was grade of fun, Emmett th ought.I smiled to myself, pleased that Id been able to shape one love storys happy ending. I was positive that Ben would follow through, and Angela would receive my unnamed gift. My debt was repaid.How silly humans were, to let a six inch height differential confound their rejoicing.That is a pretty grand difference, Jacob said. That guy must be a midget.Jake Bella reprimanded him.Sorry, Jacob sighed.My success put me in a good mood. I smiled again as I settled into my chair and wide-awake to be entertained. After all, as Bella had pointed out at lunch, Id never seen her in action in her gym class before.No, Bella groaned and Jacob laughed in forecast.microphones thoughts were the easiest to pinpoint in the babble of voices that swarmed through the gym. His mind had gotten far too acquainted(predicate) over the last few weeks. With a sigh, I resigned myself to listening through him. At least I could be sure enough that he would be paying attention to Bella.I was just in time to hear him offer to be her badminton partner as he made the suggestion, other partnerings ran through his mind. My smile faded, my teeth clenched together, and I had to remind myself that murdering mike Newton was not a permissible option.Hm Im not so sure about that, Jacob laughed.Its not, Bella said firmly.Thanks, Mikeyou dont have to do this, you know.Dont come to, Ill keep out of your way.They grinned at each other, and flashes of legion(predicate) accidentsalways in some way machine-accessible to Bellaflashed through Mikes head.Jacob started chuckling and Bella groaned. Mike played alone at first, while Bella hesitated on the back half of the court, holding her racket gingerly, as if it was some kind of weapon. Then pushchair Clapp ambled by and ordered Mike to let Bella play.Why? Bella moaned, didnt the four-in-hand understand yet?Uh oh, Mike thought as Bella moved forward with a sigh, holding her fraudulent scheme at an awkward angle.Jennifer Ford served the wench directly toward Bella with a smug gubbins to her thoughts. Mike saw Bella lurch toward it, swinging the racket yards wide of her target, and he belt along in to try to save the volley.I watched the trajectory of Bellas racket with alarm. Sure enough, it hit the taut net and sprung back at her, clipping her frontal bone before it spun out to strike Mikes arm with a resonating thwack.Jacob was howling with laughed and Bella turned bright red and held her head in her hands. That was a new all time low for her.You really are awful, Jacob choked out some time by and by.Yeah, yeah, now can you continue indication, Bella tried to sound as if this wasnt bothering her, but she was still red and her voice was too weak to pull that off.Ow. Ow. Ungh. Thats going to leave a bruise.Good, Jacob said, his dying laughter head start again.Bella was kneading her forehead. It was hard to stay in my seat where I belonged, knowing she was hurt. But what could I do, if I were there? And it didnt seem to be serious I hesitated, watching. If she intended to continue to try to play, I was going to have to manufacture an excuse to pull her out of class.Overreaction, Bella rolled her eyes.The equipage laughed. Sorry, Newton. That girls the worst nemesis Ive ever seen. Shouldnt inflict her on the others more laughter for Jacob, but Bella was pleased that the coach seemed to get it better now.He turned his back deliberately and moved to watch another game so that Bella could return to her former spectators role.Ow, Mike thought again, massaging his arm. He turned to Bella. Are you okay?Yeah, are you? she asked sheepishly, blushing.I think Ill make it. Dont want to sound like a crybaby. But, man, that hurtsCrybaby, Jacob laughed.Mike swung his arm in a circle, wincing.Ill just stay back here, Bella said, embarrassment and discompose on her face rather than pain. Maybe Mike had got the worst of it. I certainly hoped that was the case.At least she wasnt playing anymore. She held h er racquet so carefully behind her back, her eyes wide with remorse I had to block out my laugh as coughing.Whats funny? Emmett wanted to know.You know if you were in Emmetts Gym class, I bet he would have liked you from the first day, Jacob teased.Shut up, Bella hissed at him. itemize you later, I muttered.Bella didnt venture into the game again. The coach ignored her and let Mike play alone.I breezed through the quiz at the end of the hour, and Mrs. Goff let me go early. I was listening intently to Mike as I walked across the campus. Hed decided to show Bella about me.Jessica swears theyre dating. Why? Why did he have to pick her?He didnt manage the real phenomenonthat shed picked me.Dont go overboard with that, Bella rolled her eyes, it was more of a phenomenon that he had picked her aft(prenominal) a hundred years by and by all.So.So what? she wondered.You and Cullen, huh? You and the freak. I guess, if a prolific guy is that important to youBella was egregious at the boo k, she didnt like this assumption at all, but what was really getting to her was how very incorrectly Mike was Edward was so much more than just a rich guy.I gritted my teeth at his degrading assumption.Thats no(prenominal) of your business, Mike.Defensive. So its true(a). Crap. I dont like it.You dont have to, she snapped.Why cant she see what a fair sideshow he is? Like they all are.Bella was glaring more at the book than before, not liking his way of thinking at all.The way he stares at her. It gives me chills to watch. He looks at you likelike youre something to eat.Bella and Jacob both tensed a little at that it wasnt good that Mike was able to notice that.I cringed, waiting for her response.Her face turned bright red, and her lips touch together like she was holding her breath. Then, suddenly, a giggle burst through her lips.You laughed? Jacob looked at her incredulously.Um the irony of that must have gotten to me, Bella said. Im sure it was a nervous laugh if that makes you feel any better.It doesnt, Jacob said and then started reading again. now shes laughing at me. Great.Mike turned, thoughts sullen, and wandered off to change.I leaned against the gym protect and tried to compose myself.How could she have laughed at Mikes accusationso entirely on target that I began to worry that Forks was becoming too sensible Why would she laugh at the suggestion that I could kill her, when she knew that it was entirely true? Where was the humor in that?What was harm with her?Nothings wrong with me, Bella huffed.I beg to differ, Jacob chuckled, though he was giving her an odd look, too.Did she have diseased sense of humor? That didnt fit with my idea of her character, but how could I be sure? Or maybe my daydream of the light angel was true in the one respect, in that she had no sense of vexation at all. Bravethat was one word for it.Im not brave, Bella mumbled.Others might say stupid,So I guess youre stupid then, Jacob chuckled and Bella glared at him.bu t I knew how bright she was. No matter what the reason, though, this lack of fear or move sense of humor wasnt good for her. Was it this strange lack that put her in danger so constantly? Maybe she would always need me hereJust like that, my mood was soaring.If I could just trail myself, make myself safe, then perhaps it would be right for me to stay with her.When she walked through the gym doors, her shoulders were stiff and her lower lip was betwixt her teeth againa sign of anxiety. But as soon as her eyes met mine, her rigid shoulders relaxed and a wide smile spread across her face. It was an oddly peaceful expression. She walked right to my side without hesitation, only stopping when she was so close that her body heat crashed over me like a tidal wave.Hi, she whispered.The happiness I felt in this moment was, again, without precedent.Hello, I said, and thenbecause with my mood suddenly so light I couldnt resist teasing herI added, How was gym?Argh did he have to mention that ? Bella groaned.Yep, Jacob chuckled. Besides, isnt it better that you know hes watching you not as creepy that way at least.Whatever, Bella shrugged.Her smile wavered. Fine.She was a poor liar.True, Jacob and Bella both said.Really? I asked, about to press the issueI was still hited about her head was she in painbut then Mike Newtons thoughts we so loud they broke my concentration.I hate him. I wish he would die. I hope he drives that shiny car right off a cliff. Why couldnt he just leave her alone? Stick to his own kindto the freaks.What does he mean, his own kind? Jacob asked. He doesnt know that Edward is a vampire.I suppose he means rich? Bella said slowly, not sure of the answer herself. That or he instinctively knows that Edward is different.What? Bella demanded.My eyes refocused on her face. She looked at Mikes retreating back, and then at me again.Newtons getting on my nerves, I admitted.Her mouth fell open, and her smile disappeared. She must have forgotten that Id had the power to watch through her calamitous last hour, or hoped that I hadnt utilized it. more than credibly the latter, Bella said, subsequentlyward all he had demonstrate that gift quite well during their last few encounters.You werent listening again?Hows your head?Youre unbelievable she said through her teeth, and then she turned away from me and stalked furiously toward the pose lot. Her skin flushed dark redshe was embarrassed.You got that right, Jacob said.Well, no one asked him to watch me in Gym, Bella grumbled, her clumsiness was always a irritating spot for her.I kept cubic yard with her, hoping that her anger would pass soon. She was usually quick to forgive me.You were the one who mentioned how Id never seen you in Gym, I explained. It made me curious.She didnt answer her eyebrows pulled together.She came to a sudden halt in the parking lot when she realized that the way to my car was blocked by a advertise of male students.I wonder how unwavering theyve gone in thi s thingLook at the SMG shift paddles. Ive never seen those outside of a magazineNice side grillsSure wish I had cardinal thousand dollars laying aroundUm Jacob do you want me to leave, Bella chuckled as Jacob was practically drooling at the description of the car.No, but I want you to get me into the Cullen garage sometime in the future, Jacob said.You do realize thats Rosalies car Bella said smirking.Argh, Jacob groaned. Why did you have to remind me of that?This was exactly why it was better for Rosalie to only use her car out of town.I violate through the throng of lustful boys to my car after a second of hesitation, Bella followed suit.Ostentatious, I muttered as she climbed in.What kind of car is that? she wondered.An M3.She frowned. I dont speak Car and Driver.Come on, Bella Jacob groaned. You should know that at least.Sorry, Bella shrugged, chuckling at his behavior.Its a BMW. I rolled my eyes and then focused on backing out without path anyone down. I had to lock eyes wit h a few boys that didnt seem willing to move out of my way. A half-second clash my attentiveness seemed to be enough to convince them.Is that car really that special? Bella rolled her eyes.Jacob just stared at her incredulously.I guess it is, Bella mumbled.Are you still angry? I asked her. Her frown had relaxed.Definitely, she answered curtly.I sighed. Maybe I shouldnt have brought it up. Oh well. I could try to make amends, I supposed. Will you forgive me if I excuse?She thought about that for a moment. Maybeif you mean it, she decided.And if you promise not to do it again.Dont hold your breath, Jacob chuckled.I know thats never going to happen, Bella chuckled too.I wasnt going to lie to her, and there was no way I was suiting to that. perhaps if I offered her a different exchange.How about if I mean it, and I agree to let you drive this Saturday? I cringed internally at the thought.Oh that works, Bella said.The furrow popped into existence between her eyes as she considered th e new bargain. Deal, she said after a moment of thought.Now for my apology Id never tried to blind Bella on purpose before, but now seemed like a good time.Oh great, Bella mumbled, blushing already. The thought of him actually trying to dazzle her was too much for her.I stared deep into her eyes as I herd away from the school, wondering if I was doing it right. I used my most persuasive tone.Then Im very sorry I untune you.Her heartbeat thudded louder than before, and the rhythm was abruptly staccato.Her eyes widened, looking a little stunned.I half-smiled. It seemed like Id gotten it right. Of course, I was having a bit of difficulty looking away from her eyes, too. every bit blind. It was a good thing I had this road memorized.What? Bella said, snapping out of her daze she liked thinking of them both being dazzled by each other but still, Hes not even looking at the roadBut he has it memorized thats just as good, Jacob laughed at her expression.That is not good at all Bella s napped, note to self, no dazzling in the car um while its moving at least.And Ill be on your doorstep bright and early Saturday morning, I added, finishing the agreement.She blinked swiftly, shaking her head as if to clear it. Um, she said, it doesnt help with the Charlie situation if an unexplained Volvo is left in the driveway.Hes not going to take his car, Bella said, how little she understood him in this book.Ah, how little she still knew me. I wasnt intending to draw a car.Bella blinked at that and then smiled, it was nice knowing they could think alike.How she started to ask.I break up her. The answer would be hard to explain without a demonstration, and now was hardly the time. Dont worry about it. Ill be there, no car.She put her head on one side, and looked for a second like she was going to press for more, but then she seemed to change her mind.Is it later yet? she asked, reminding me of our unfinished conversation in the cafeteria today shed let go of one difficult ques tion just to return another that was more unappealing.Yeah, isnt that nice of her, Jacob chuckled.I suppose it is later, I agreed unwillingly.I parked in front of her house, tensing as I tried to think of how to explainwithout making my monstrous nature too evident, without excite her again. Or was that wrong? To minimalize my darkness?She waited with the same politely interested mask shed drawn at lunch. If Id been less anxious, her preposterous calm would have made me laugh.And you still want to know why you cant see me delineate? I asked.Well, mostly I was wondering about your reaction, she said.Did I frighten you? I asked, positive that she would deny it.No.I tried not to smile, and failed. I exempt for scaring you. And then my smile vanished with the momentary humor. It was just the very thought of you being therewhile we hunted.Jacob shivered at that.That would be bad?The mental picture was too muchBella, so vulnerable in the empty darkness myself, out of control I tried t o banish it from my head.Well, you dont have to send it our way, Jacob snapped.Extremely.BecauseI took a deep breath, concentrating for one moment on the sunburn thirst. Feeling it, managing it, proving my dominion over it. It would never control me againI willed that to be true. I would be safe for her. I stared at the delicious clouds without seeing them, wishing I could intend that my determination would make any difference if I were hunting when I pass over her scent.When we huntwe give ourselves over to our senses, I told her, thinking through each word before I spoke it. Govern less with our minds. Especially our sense of smell. If you were anywhere near me when I lost control that wayJacob and Bella both shivered at that. No, she could definitely never see him hunt.I shook my head in agony at the thought of what wouldnot what could, but what wouldsurely happen then.I listened to the fortify in her heartbeat, and then turned, restless, to read her eyes.Bellas face was com posed, her eyes grave. Her mouth was pursed just slightly in what I guessed was concern. But concern for what? Her own safety? Or my trouble? I continued to stare at her, trying to translate her ambiguous expression into sure fact.Your anguish, Im sure, Jacob mumbled. She puts others before herself.You dont have to make it sound like a bad thing, Bella sighed.She gazed back. Her eyes grew wider after a moment, and her pupils dilated, though the light had not changed.My breathing accelerated, and suddenly the quiet in the car seemed to be humming, just like in the darkened biology room this afternoon. The pulsing current raced between us again, and my desire to touch her was, briefly, stronger even than the demands of my thirst.Um this really is pretty freaky, Jacob muttered and Bella rolled her eyes, curious to know what this really meant.The hurt electricity made it feel like I had a pulse again. My body sang with it. Like I was human. More than anything in the world, I wanted to feel the heat of her lips against mine. For one second, I struggled desperately to find the strength, the control, to able to put my mouth so close to her skinBella froze in place waiting in anticipation heart hammering.Jacob shifted uncomfortably and was wary about how dangerous that would be.She sucked in a chevvy breath, and only then did I realize that when I had started breathing faster, she had stopped breathing altogether.I closed my eyes, trying to break the connection between us.No more mistakes.Bella sighed sadly.Bellas existence was tied to a thousand delicately balanced chemical processes, all so easily disrupted. The rhythmic enlargement of her lungs, the flow of oxygen, was life or finale to her. The fluttering cadence of her fragile heart could be stopped by so many stupid accidents or illnesses orby me.I did not believe that any constituent of my family would hesitate if he or she were offered a chance backif he or she could conduct immortality for mortality a gain. Any one of us would stand in fire for it. bite for as many days or centuries as were necessary.But you cant go back, Bella said sadly, which meant that if they were ever going to be equal she would have to changeMost of our kind prized immortality above anything else. There were even humans who craved this, who searched in dark places for those who could give them the blackest of giftsNot us. Not my family. We would trade anything to be human.Right, Jacob said, and he believed what Edward was saying, it really did explain why they did what they did.But none of us had ever been as desperate for a way back as I was now.I stared at the microscopic pits and flaws in the windshield, like there was some solution hidden in the glass. The electricity had not faded, and I had to concentrate to keep my hands on the wheel.My right hand began to sting without pain again, from when Id touched her before.Bella, I think you should go inside now.She obeyed at once, without comment, getting o ut of the car and shutting the door behind herself. Did she feel the potential for disaster as clearly as I did?Um Im sure I felt the electricity and notice that you dont want to touch me, Bella sighed, Im probably just following your lead.Did it hurt her to leave, as it hurt me to let her go? The only comfortableness was that I would see her soon. Sooner than she would see me. I smiled at that, then rolled the window down and leaned across to speak to her one more timeit was safer now, with the heat of her body outside the car.She turned to see what I wanted, curious.Still curious, though shed asked me so many questions today.Oh therere so many more questions I have for you, Bella said.My own curiosity was entirely unsatisfied answering her questions today had only revealed my secretsIt looks like hes thinking the same thing, Jacob chuckled.Id gotten little from her but my own conjectures. That wasnt fair.Oh, Bella?Yes?Tomorrow its my turn.Her forehead puckered. Your turn to what ?Ask the questions. Tomorrow, when we were in a safer place, surrounded by witnesses, I would get my own answers. I grinned at the thought, and then I turned away because she made no move to leave. Even with her outside of the car, the echo of the electricity zinged in the air. I wanted to get out, too, to walk her to her door as an excuse to stay beside herNo more mistakes. I hit the gas, and then sighed as she disappeared behind me. It seemed like I was always running toward Bella or running away from her, never staying in place. I would have to find some way to hold my ground if we were ever going to have any peace.Well, thats most definitely true, Bella said. I wonder what hes going to ask me.Well, it looks like youre going to have to wait a long time to interpret out, Jacob said putting the book down.Why? Bella said looking at the clock, it was nine. We still have some time.Thats not why, Jacob chuckled. Its because that was the end of the book.What? Bella said. That cant be t he end there so much more I dont know what happensSorry, Bells, thats it, Jacob shrugged.Is there at note or anything like that? Bella asked, picking up the book and noticing a small note and readIm sorry that this was all that I could give you, but this was all I could release before you got to school. But there is no need to worry your story goes on for a long time after this.Bella frowned as she read this, how could this person end the book here but promise that there is a lot more for her to find out? Who is this SM person?Um Im not sure, but its the person that left me the note in the first place, Jacob said.Yeah, I figured, Bella rolled her eyes.So um what do we do now? Jacob asked.Im not sure, Bella said.But youre preparedness on meeting this Edward guy for real, arent you, Jacob said.Of course, Bella looked at him suspiciously. He had promised at one time that he wouldnt let that happen. She hoped he had changed his mind because there was no way she would allow that.And ho w do you plan on meeting him at first? Jacob questioned.Um Bella said, she didnt think of that but he was right the first meeting really was something that she had to think about Edward was, after all going to be deadly attracted to her. I suppose well just have to think of something.